Bottlefeeding, anyone?


Posted on : 21-08-2009 | By : dutdot | In : All about my baby, Nutrition, Parenting

The more that I become critical, the more that something goes wrong.

I was trembling the moment I noticed that I gave my baby an adult milk, not her infant formula milk. Good thing, she didn’t drink much of the adult milk.

I was so careful in preparing her milk; but, as human errorĀ  did occur at that time, I switched the cans of milk. How did that happen? I used the old tin can of baby’s milk and put the adult milk powder (which her daddy would bring to the office) into it, and labeled the cover with her daddy’s name. Then I opened my baby’s new milk and put baby’s name on it, too. Knowing that I got her daddy’s milk, I put it in the table so that I wouldn’t be confused since the two cans were of the same brand on the outside.

When baby asked for milk, her yaya immediately prepared 4 oz of milk. I fed my baby, and noticed that she wasn’t in the mood. I got up and asked her yaya to feed her. Then I went to the table. I got the shock of my life when I read on the cover of the tin can the name of her daddy, instead of her name on it. I went to the living room and checked the other can of milk. There was my baby’s milk. Ohh. God works really in mysterious ways. If baby didn’t cry that night while I was feeding her, and that I didn’t ask her yaya to feed her, I wouldn’t know that I was feeding her with adult milk.

I immediately removed the bottle from my baby’s mouth, poured the milk into a glass and asked her yaya to drink it. I checked the source of the adult milk (large can of adult milk), and read there that the content is not formulated for infant feeding. Ohh. I compared the two milk based on sizes of milk particles, the taste, and the smell. I was worried about the effect of the adult milk to my baby. Good thing, she just consumed maybe 1ml of it, which she also threw up. Then, I remembered that, a long time ago, maybe, 7 years ago, my cousin gave her new baby an adult milk, not the formula milk for babies. And her baby did grow well and nothing happened to him after drinking adult milk.

Guilt ran over me once again. Instantly, I blamed myself for not breastfeeding my baby. Looking back the past four months, I knew I did not do my best in forcing myself to breastfeed. I am a new mommy. It’s only my husband and me in this foreign land that we are in. We had no househelp when I gave birth. We were so stressed out. I wasn’t eating well. I had no enough sleep. I had no enough rest. I thought I would always fell down. I was afraid of not giving my baby enough breastmilk. And a lot of excuses could go on. Were they really excuses? Then I read somewhere from the Web that when breastfeeding, I could have mastitis, if there are some milk that could not go out of the breasts. To heck, I got scared of it. Sometimes, we don’t have to believe what we are reading elsewhere. Sometimes, we just have to trust our instinct. Sometimes, we have to think not of ourselves, but, for the benefit of our babies, in this case, my baby. The list could go on. My rants of not breastfeeding could go on.

I knew that breastfeeding is still the best for babies. But what can a new mother do if there’s not much milk, or maybe, it’s just my clouded thoughts that I didn’t have enough milk; what to do if my body wasn’t that ready to feed my hungry baby because of lack of sleep and rest and lack of physical help. Of course, I resorted to bottlefeeding. I should just be extra careful when preparing my baby’s formula milk. Yes. The same goes with breastfeeding. Mothers, who breastfeed, should be careful of what they are putting into their mouths as well.

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