T H E   91st L E T T E R

Nov. 22, 2011 @9:05p.m.

Dear Baby1,

Today, glad Mommy wasn’t hard that much on ourselves. When you saw me peeking on the room you are sharing with your little sissy and nanny (because Mommy has been having coughs and colds), you smiled, waved, and asked for a hug. Since I wasn’t coughing that much that time and I had a mask, I hugged you tightly. Oh, I miss you so much Ate and BBK. I am longing for the time when I can hug, kiss you both once again – freely. But for now, I am not free because of my coughs and colds. I am reserving my green barley bottles for you both so I don’t have any left for me to drink. It’s OK. Both of you need this health supplement more than Mommy.

Tonight, you were so happy when you saw and heard Mommy via the Tango app I installed on your nanny’s phone. Mommy’s so elated, too. It was so comforting to see you both virtually, at least, during this time that I have coughs and colds. For the past two days, we didn’t have Internet connection that’s why Mommy didn’t call you via Viber. This afternoon, a technician from Quality Net went to our house; Internet service connection is now back to normal. Yipee.

Mommy and Daddy will be very busy in the next days ahead because of BBK’s baptism. Please pray for Mommy’s quick healing at the soonest so we can play, cuddle, hug each other.

Thank you, Ate, for taking good care of your little sissy. I love the way you talk to your little sissy. BBK speaks a lot of words now. Thanks to you for speaking to her daily in English.

You’re both sleeping now. I heard from your yaya that your little sissy always wakes you up in the morning by greeting you with “hi”. Oh, I am pretty sure you’re always sleepy, Ate. Sleep well.

This is all for now.

iloveyou,

mommy

T H E  2nd L E T T E R

Nov. 22, 2011 @ 8:52p.m.

Dear Baby2,

Howdy, baby! I miss you so much. I peeked into your room, and you’re crying because you wanted to sit down but couldn’t!

Your yaya told me that yesterday, you answered her with “how” when she asked you if you wanted to sit down. And then she overheard you saying “help” to your big sissy.

My goodness, you’re such a bright baby!

Mommy and Daddy are busily preparing for your baptism and welcoming party after the ceremony. Over the next few days, we will be very busy with the menu, the dresses, the guests, and more. But we should always remember that it’s about the simple and important reason behind the baptism: the removal of original sin. The party just symbolizes that we’re proud of what will happen to you at the baptism ceremony.

Mommy still couldn’t be with you at night or during the day. I just could not force myself yet to carry you and kiss you. I still have coughs and colds. You have a little cold, but it dries up when your yaya administers green barley to you. Thank goodness, you have Ate A with you, your big sissy.

Tonight, you and Ate were able to hear and see Mommy on the video via the Tango app that I installed on your yaya’s phone. We’d be using more of this app while I am recovering. I should be free from any virus strain (runny nose, itchy throat) before we could play again. It’s better that way than seeing you having the virus strain.

This is all for now.

iloveyou,

mommy

My dearest girls,

Mommy’s heart is bleeding. It has been bleeding for a week now. From the time that Mommy got the bug last Nov. 14 until today I resisted of getting nearer to anyone of you. Believe me, it’s very hard on Mommy’s part. We’ve been inseparable from the time you were both born in 2009 and this year, respectively. This is the longest time that I’ve never touched, kissed, hugged, and cuddled you both.

Thank God Mommy has no fever, only coughs and colds. Almost everyone get the coughs and colds during prewinter time. I wanted to spare you both. Please do understand Mommy. I think I got another virus strain again that’s why it’s kinda hard for me to recover soonest. It was only Daddy who got my virus strain last week. But yesterday night, your nanny said that BBK didn’t sleep well last night because she has colds. Oh no.

How many times you attempted to play with me, to talk with me – both of you – but Mommy hesitated. It would bleed Mommy’s heart if both of you will get sick. Today, I saw BB A at the kitchen. You were washed by your nanny because you pooped. You saw me at the living room, drinking water. You approached me happily. You were trying to get nearer to me. And since, Mommy’s so afraid that you might get the virus strain from me, I told you, “No, baby, don’t get near Mommy”. I saw you were hurt, my 1st born. You went away from Mommy, near the cabinet, your eyes were sad, evoking a questioning look. I cried. I could not hide it anymore. Tears sprang from my eyes as I went to our room. I am crying until now.

I remember this morning the happy face that BB K gave me when I peaked into the small opening of your door. BB K smiled at me. I smiled and waived back. Oh, how I miss you so much, too, BB K, my youngest baby. I love you both, my babies, and I miss you so much.

I am writing to express the pain I feel inside. I shouldn’t cry anymore because it will just add up to the discomfort of having clogged nose.

I need to protect you both from getting sick. This is a better way to protect you both by confining myself alone in our bedroom. Yesterday, when we went to Al Salam, Daddy started to sneeze and have runny nose just after we went out of the elevator. No one in there sneezed. But we thought he got another virus strain. Colds are common during pre-winter and winter season. We have to sacrifice to protect you both. I really don’t want to recall how you both were hospitalized a few months back just because of colds and high fever, over 39 degrees Celsius.

I am sorry, my two adorable babies. Mommy loves you so much, always remember that.

I will try my very best to get better soonest.

iloveyou,

mommy

T H E   9oth  L E T T E R

Nov. 16, 2011 @ 12:34p.m.

Dear Baby1,

It was ages since I last wrote you a letter. Sorry for that, my baby! And so sorry, too, because I am sick! You and your little sissy must stay with your nanny until Mommy’s safe. I really don’t want you both to get sick. I am terrified at the thought of you and bb K are sick. I could not forget the many times that we had been frequently visiting Al Salam Hospital. Oh no.

How are you now, baby? Mommy’s so surprised at your rapid verbal development at 2 years and 8 months. My goodness, you talk a lot in a slang way! Haha. Even our surname, you pronounce it the western way, and not the Filipino way! LOL. Now, Mommy’s beginning to adopt the pronunciation of our last name. Haha.

You’re such a fast learner, my baby. You love Dora a lot! Haha. Now, your little sissy, bb K, is into Dora, too!

The other night, you surprised Mommy and Daddy with a lot of new sentences and new words! Where did you get those? And, yeah, Daddy and Mommy are so proud of you because you are grammatically correct! You really can beat those grade six pupils and some highschool students in talking in English. No kidding.

I am glad that you are a native English speaker even when no one at home speaks English all the time. When you don’t understand us because we talk in Filipino or in our dialect, you’d call our attention by mimicking us (blah blah blah). LOL.

Your height and weight aren’t that much good for your age. It must be because in the past you haven’t been a good drinker of your milk, and also not a good eater of solids! And yeah, you were brought to the hospital every now and then! Oh my God. Please, baby, please eat well. Recently, you suffered from urinary tract infection. Oh my gosh! UTI in toddler! I just couldn’t believe that you got it. On Nov. 19, you’ll be having a urine test and urine culture. I hope that the infection is no longer there. Thank God for green barley, it helped you pee just after drinking it the night that we rushed you to the ER. That night, too, you were so talkative. You talked, sang from 12midnight to 7a.m.! Oh my goodness. I was somehow amused but pissed at the same time hahaha because Mommy got no sleep for a few days then. You just didn’t want mommy to sleep. The nurses were also amused at you.

Anyway. I am praying for your good health, and that of bb K. I wish you both good health especially during this winter time.

For two nights now, you and bb K aren’t sleeping with daddy and mommy. It’s because daddy and mommy are sick. It’s better that way. It’s good that you and bb K are spared from this flu bug!

This month, we started our lesson on how to read. Oh my goodness! You’re such a fast learner, my baby! You did surprise me when one time, you read in advance (we weren’t on that lesson yet) haha and there you were reading the word “am”. To some kids, they do read in advance at an early age. But I don’t care. It’s just lately that you want to be taught. Haha. So you see, baby, you want to teach yourself. Glad for the times that you listen to Mommy! In three months, before you hit your 3rd birthday, I am pretty sure that you’ll be reading like a pro. Your mind is like a sponge! PB.

Did you know that you’re such a darling? Thank you so much for being sweet!!! I do miss you a lot, baby. I miss the countless times you say “I love you”, “I love you, too”, “how are you?”, “I’m fine”, and more everyday. I miss how you say “hug, hug”, “kiss, kiss” every time mommy and daddy go out of the house. I am amused at how you say, “aaaahhh” when you are disappointed. You have a high emotional quotient, baby. I am proud of you, and bb K. You’re both smart, witty, beautiful, and loving! What more can I ask for?

Please pray for mommy’s speedy recovery from this pre-winter flu bug. I want to hug and kiss you and your little sissy. I miss you both so much.

Please take care.

This is all for now. I hope to write you more letters soon.

iloveyou,

mommy